Should have been said, long ago

As you sleep,
I write thoughts
that I should have said to you,
many, many months ago.

My pain is deep.
but my pain will subside,
quickly, perhaps quietly,
when my time comes to an end.

However,
the pain you endure.
day after day,
is so much more,
than what I live with,
day after day.

I thought I was hurting,
then I imagined,
what you were facing,
after I am gone,

My pain will subside,
when I go to heaven,
but your pain shall go on,
for your eternity.

I can't imagine that pain,
the thoughts of alone,
imagining your pain,
is just to much,
for me to take on.

Please go on with out me,
strong and upright,
proud and remembering,
of the life we spent together,
together forever,
in your heart,
in our souls.