

Here are my random thoughts as I get a grip on having cancer at 42 (now 49) years old. I would like to inspire hope in all of you and in myself as well as to provide a place for you to keep track of me through this ordeal.
As much as I never liked that song, it's the best I can do for now. Creativity is lacking today!
This might be my last entry for a week or more. Though I'll try to post a few updates from internet cafes, I'll have a few other priorities:
1) Call Mary daily
2) Call Mary daily
3) Have fun
4) Play a boat load of disc golf
5) Did I mention call Mary daily?
6) Post blog updates
I love keeping you all updated, but sorry, you're a distant 6th!
The web site for the British Open is: http://www.bdgaopen.co.uk/
I share that reluctantly. If they post scores on Saturday and Sunday (July 22-23rd)
I hope my name's not at the bottom of the Am's!!
Here is where we are staying our first night in Stockholm; http://www.rica-hotels.com/index.cfm?oa=hotel.display&con=561 Notice the farmer's market right out in front!! After that, it's fly by the seat of your pants baby!!! Seriously, we'll have a car and a map to the disc courses, but that's it! [Sounds a little crazy now that I write it down!!!]
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The television appearance went great, though I wish we had more time. In the end, we got our message across and got in a few plugs for the foundation and the golf tournament. The host, Jack Harry was very sincere. He was invited to be our honorary chairperson at the golf tournament! I'll get the clip converted when I get back. I owe my Doc a huge thanks, not many people would take time away from their family to help a patient! Truly a world class guy!
This appearance has already led to a follow up. The same station runs a show from 10-11am called 'Kansas City Live". I'm scheduled to make an appearance on August 10th. More details to follow upon my return.
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We spent the weekend in St. Louis. I just got home via Southwest Airlines, Mary and Brad are driving back tomorrow. They are spending another day with my family, my sister and nephew from Ohio. We only get to see them once a year for a week, almost always in St. Louis. This year I had to cut it short since I’m taking two weeks starting next Sunday.
The time flies whenever we go to St. Louis, but I always seem to get a lot accomplished. My two brothers, Dad and I played golf on Saturday. Mary, Brad and I stopped in to see my uncle and aunt on our way in Friday night, they live about an hour outside of St. Louis. I took my sister disc golfing Sunday morning (I didn’t keep score, just played 6 holes to show her what it’s all about). I helped my dad with computer and thermostat problems and fixed a nasty Windows XP issue my brother and sister in law were having.
We visited my grandmother. She’s 100 and was doing great until recently. She has osteoporosis really bad and is on a lot of pain medication. They changed her dose and now she is starting to show signs of dementia. It was very sad. At one point she pointed to my blue FLHW bracelet and asked “What’s that for?”, I replied “To raise awareness about Prostate cancer”. Her response was a punch in the gut if there ever was one, “Oh, David’s going to die.” She immediately turned to my sister and asked about a box of Kleenex or something else totally unrelated, but for me the words hung in the room like a foul odor.
This woman is a saint. To see her like this, at what is likely nearing the end of a wonderful life, is heartbreaking. Two stories about her; first, as a teenager she took a steamship to Egypt with a friend and the friend's parents and was able to visit King Tut’s tomb! Second there is a very funny story from around the time she was ten; a girlfriend and her snuck into the neighborhood Catholic Church one day and put a kitten into the baptismal font. She is a wonderful, wonderful woman. I prayed on my flight home that God spare her anymore pain, if ever there was someone who deserves to be spared, it is her.
I have to run now - I have to get my thoughts together for the big television appearance tomorrow night. I’m going to tape it. At some point I'll figure out how to get it from tape onto the internet for those of you who are not in KC.
Next Tuesday night at 7:00pm I make my television premier. Technically, it's my second time on television, years ago I was on 'The Today Show', but it was a non-speaking part, I was just in the background as Al Roker interviewed two twins from Biloxi.
For those here in Kansas City I will be appearing, along with Dr. Davis, on '38 The Spot' with Jack Harry. Jack is a long time sportscaster here in KC and after sharing my story, he was more than willing to put us on the air. I can't believe Dr. Davis agreed to join me, just another example of him being the best!! My goal is to spend as much time as possible talking about PC and increasing awareness rather than talking about my specific case. There are numerous statistics and facts to cover and we only have twenty minutes!
For those with Time Warner Cable, 38 is on Channel 8. It's a live studio show, more of a casual, conversational setting. I'm already getting a little nervous.
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On another note, 8 days until we leave, more on that later.
Perhaps it was this past weekends events, perhaps it's just the heat of summer getting to me or maybe it was the encouraging news this weekend about the benefits of pomegranate juice, but something has renewed my vigor to fight. I had never lost it, it was just in a lull as the weeks and months continued to fly by.
Coming into work today a song, the lack of traffic, something reminded me that I am fortunate, blessed and free. We live in the greatest country in the history of man. Leaving the politics aside, the blessings our freedom alone provides cannot be argued. I am surrounded by a loving family and friends that are willing to do next to anything for me, and for complete strangers. Though we all spend a little to much time on selfish things, when push comes to shove, we're there for each other.
I try to limit the amount of advice I give here, it's not my motive, it's not the purpose. However, I have to mention this, if yourself find yourself in battle such as this, you have to let it go at times. Your mind can’t deal with the constant stress every minute of everyday. Maybe that's why Saturday mornings have become so important, disc golf provides a diversion for a few hours. Some could argue I'm not facing reality during these few hours or by taking the trip to Sweden/Great Britain. I say you're wrong. In my humble, opinion these types of events are exactly how one faces the reality of this type of situation! Mary and I spend countless hours a week with the weight of reality firmly placed on our backs, and sometimes unpacking for a few hours, a few days is exactly the right prescription!
It has now been seventeen month since I started this blog, what a journey it has been! It's a journey that is just beginning, I feel it, I know it, I pray for it. My upcoming trip overseas is a diversion, albeit it has potential to be one heck of a diversion, but a diversion none the less. By mid-August the blood tests will recommence and a major part of my life will be guided by a number. However, that's about six week away!
Tomorrow, as you lay on a blanket, stare into the heavens and watch the fireworks, say a silent blessing to your health, your family, your friends and your freedom.
Peace