Tomorrow is the date of my next PSA test. It's just the beginning because we'll likely not know the results until early next week. Therefore, we will have a weekend filled with anxiousness and anticipation. Not that we haven’t already been experiencing this for most of the past week. We did a pretty good job of "moving on" over the past 5 weeks, but time has caught up with us.
Sleep over the past week has been restless. Between hot flashes and worry, I've been tossing and turning more than usual. Over the weekend my back/neck acted up. I was having more pain than usual. Up to that point, my pain was usually something that flared up at the end of the day. Sitting on the sofa would clear things up every time. On Saturday the discomfort would not go away for the most part, it increased on subsequent days peaking yesterday afternoon. The good news is this morning it was virtually gone. We were getting quite concerned. Let's hope it continues the rest of the day and beyond.
What's next, beyond this test? Let's all pray (please) my PSA number comes down. If that is the case we just continue in this watch and wait mode. If it's up, we have a very difficult choice to make - which of several treatment choices do we make? All are experimental, all are risky, all are only moderately promising? What a great position to be in, what lies behind door 1, 2 and 3???
Where all three are not good…….
I just noticed I used the word "usual" a number of times in this entry, what part of this entire experience is "usual"????