There are times when I write entries and I stop and ask myself, "Why am I doing this?".
On the other hand, lately there are times when I have to stop and remember that I have cancer. The latter is good to some extent, it means I am dealing with this and getting on with my life, as best as I can. The moments are brief, but the moments are priceless.
As for “Why” - when I started this blog my initial purpose was selfish, it was therapeutic. I could write about what ever I wanted. I could freely express my inner emotions and expose my true feelings. After all, who would want to read about some middle aged man as he struggles with cancer? Then the purpose morphed into something more, it became a way to keep family and friends updated.
Over time, it has grown to a level that I never anticipated it would reach. There are people that I have never met or even exchanged emails with, that read my periodic ramblings. Just last week we received an order for FLHW bracelets from a woman in Florida. When the order came in, neither Mary nor I had any idea who had sent it in. As it turns out, she found my blog from a link on another blog from someone fighting prostate cancer. She and her husband’s story are like so many of us struggling with this disease, tragically unique, but still optimistic.
I sincerely appreciate the comments and emails that I receive from those that read my blog. Touching the lives of others and inspiring those who are battling this dreadful disease as well as those who support them is now a primary reason, “Why I do this”.
....and so life goes on, moment by moment, one day at a time.