The high from a good PSA score usually lasts over the first weekend after we get the news.
Then, things return to 'abnormal'. They return to thinking about, what is next?
- What if next month the number jumps?
- What can I eat that might help?
- What can I do to assist the current medications?
- How much more green tea, pomegranate juice, green veggies, fresh fruit can I eat?
- Was three glasses of wine too much the other night?
- I gained four pounds over the weekend. [Mary is happy]
- Should I work out more or less than I have been?
- Should I not ride the exercise bike the week leading up to the next test?
- Will there be any announcements about trials, drugs, breakthroughs in the coming month?
We have been wanting to return to Florida over the summer, when is too far out to plan? I have been meaning to take a training class for work in Atlanta, when should I schedule it? We should probably get to St. Louis over the summer, can we fit it in? Everything we plan to do is scheduled around the monthly doctor appointments, which vary by month and in some cases, based on the current test results.
These thoughts pretty much circulate through my head each month. My life has now become chunks or periods that last the 28 days between tests. Planning too far ahead is a task, and is risky.
From a distance, it appears our lives are quite 'normal', but in actuality, they're not. We like normal, and try hard to maintain as normal a lifestyle as possible, give our situation.
As in the past, this is not a complaint, just an observation I share with you.