February 28, 2011
This observation came to me as I looked around and noticed the others, waiting themselves. Those with bandanas are obviously grizzled veterans like myself. Then I witness the groups of families. Maybe mom, dad and one of their older children. They pick up and read the pamphlets and tend to be a bit more talkative than those who've been here before.
Each of us in this waiting room are not only in a different stage of the journey, but we travel the road that is the journey differently. Just this morning I was reading yet another story about the link between red meat and cancer. As I observe fellow patients, I am certain many of them skipped over the pamphlet that promotes the important link between nutrition and cancer. My remark is not intended to be snide or disrespectful, I just find it difficult to imagine myself, in this battle, still eating and behaving as I did before cancer.
A good, snappy analogy eludes me this morning. I know I've spoke of this in previous posts, but it really gets to me. I just want to sit next to people and try to get through to them and try to convince them that it is in their best interest to follow a low fat diet.We have so little in our control, diet is one thing we can try to do to help ourselves.
I pray that they eventually realize how important diet can be in fighting cancer. I know most won't change, and some simply just don't want to.
In closing I should report that my Doc in Atlanta diagnosed my back as a muscle pull. It inially started a few days after I played disc golf (after a two month lay off). I followed that up by continuing working out each morning. Sometimes I can be a little stubborn. After not working out for almost a week and being extra careful, I'm happy to report I'm 48 hours without Advil and last night I slept better and without a heating pad for the first time in over a week. Thankfully, problem solved.
February 25, 2011
When I see you like this,
I hurt so deep down inside.
It only gets worse,
when I consider that,
there is nothing I can do.
I can only hang out on the fringe,
witnessing your pain,
handcuffed to the reality
that is life.
This world is cruel,
and so are her inhabitants,
believers and hypocrits
all wrapped up in one being.
February 23, 2011
This past week I have been dealing with a bit of back pain. It is manageable, but I do plan to discuss with Dr. A in Atlanta on Thursday and with Dr.V next Monday. It's on my right side and feels like it is in the middle of one of my ribs. After doing some research on line this afternoon, I learned that back pain is one of the listed side effects for the clinical trial drub, so I am hopeful that is the source of the pain, versus a bone met.Tylenol and Advil have been taking care of it and I have spent the last few nights sleeping on the heating pad, which has helped as well.
Tomorrow I will complete my second one-day round trip to Atlanta. When I printed my boarding pass for the departing flight this morning, the forecast said 61 and sunny in Atlanta. I just print the boarding pass for my return flight and the forecast says 41 and snow flurries in KC when I return! If my flight is oversold, I might just have to get off and stay the night. (Just kidding Mary!)
February 17, 2011
February 10, 2011
5:01am showered, dressed and and out the door
5:43am arrive at KCI, terminal A
6:35am flight departs on time
9:22am arrive ATL Hartsfield
9:59am with large vanilla latte, board Marta red line
10:28am arrive at Arts Center Station
10:36am unlock the Zip Car
10:54am arrive at Oncologist's office (only 9 minutes late)
11:35am finish appt with medical staff and depart
11:41am finally get to have breakfast, coffee
12:22pm return Zip Car
12:26pm board Marta to airport
12:57pm arrive at Hartsfield
1:25pm Pass through TSA, no pat down required
3:45pm Return flight to KCI, on-time and with another open middle seat
6:02pm Back home, dinner with the family!
I can only hope that future trips go so well!
February 08, 2011
I'm not suggesting that I'm Kreskin or Nostradamus, but it is crazy how close I was with some of the things in this post from two and half years ago. Provenge, I was nearly right on the money, it was 19 months later.
On another note, the dead of winter has set in with a vengeance and I really look forward to Spring.
February 05, 2011
During the year I had two bone scans, a CT scan, a MRI, 14 radiation treatments, 13 Zometa and Lupron treatments. I was on DES (not included in this cost) I have been on Lovenox since mid-October.
Billed Amount $117,005.53
Paid by Plan $46,156.01
Patient Responsibility $1,684.97
Billed Amount = amount medical provider billed insurer
Paid by Plan = amount insurer paid medical provider
For a general idea of what this has cost so far, take these numbers and multiply times six.
All I can do is say a little prayer for the fact I have great health insurance!